Zero upon six

I saw him. That familiar face, I cannot help it but smile to myself.
He missed his glance. He was looking somewhere else. Why is it now that I can't tell him I love him, why is it only now that it's too late ?
I don't want to be reminded. Nevertheless, I would be welcomed with the 'zero upon six' number of people in my 'Dote on' column in MSN, and be reminded, again.
I used to have upon seven. I have so many things to avoid, in order to stay cheerful. I have to avoid certain songs and some perfume smells. Every now and then I would be reminded.
At times, even when just walking by something or someplace that bears resemblance, I would be inadvertently reminded. I really want these to stop badly. I am trying my best to find ways and methods to solve all these regardless of the inevitable futile attempts.

Cheers,
Eunice