An entry about something everyone is sick of

A lot might not want to read this entry. But I'm blogging about it in anyway. I woke up this morning and start to miss Khaikheng again. Not only this morning actually. After since Arts night, I think my love for him is starting to grow deeper again. However, he had made it very clear about not patching up. See how rigid that man is? There is no one I can really talk to with regards to that man. DX would give smoothing replies and sensible phrases, but it's never going to work on such a stubborn person like me. Juvey would never give you sensible replies. No need to ask her. You tell her you miss someone, she'd ask you to call the person. However, she's the cutest one of all and I still love her. Justikins is never going to bother about any source of information with the word "Khaikheng" because she is super sick of them. So, whenever I have problems regarding Khaikheng, I would approach Dicky. & the reason is he always draws my attention away. First he'd ask me to give up and move on. & then, he would go totally out of point and it really helps a lot. He will bring up funny things like "Alvin" and "Abhishek". Thanks Dicky, your cruelty to Alvin and Abhishek has cheered me up quite a bit.

I have always been moving on since the break up. I have been travelling in this desert and I'm trying to get my way out. However, when I'm moving on, I bring along my past with me. While I am walking, there are often difficult road paths, & that is when the big bag of past memories plays it's role to hold me back. I cannot possibly keep dragging that bag with me for the rest of my journey. That bag of past is just like water to me in the desert. If I let go, I'd die. But if I don't, it's going to obstruct my journey and I'll still die due to the long duration spent in the desert. I need an Oasis. A long one that could stretch out to the end of the desert.

An Oasis represents new love. I need a new love to forget about the past. I am desperate to forget about the past. I am sure I am.