School's fine

I am back from camp quite a few days ago, I just did not feel like blogging. As I've said before in previous entries, I won't blog when I am sad. Not point advertising it. So much things happened when I was in camp. I'm glad everything settled down before I was out of camp. After the whole incident, I've learnt how to be smart and trust only the three people have in my life now. I am satisfied with my life now. I really am. I just don't want any enemies. Acquaintances, yes. "I hate yous", no. In anyway, everything is well now.
Right, so I supposed I've officially started school in a polytechnic I was relunctant to go. The key word is "was". That means, I'm pretty cool with studying in there now, because I have got no choice. Don't like also have to go, like also have to go. However, I got to say, the people in my Orientation group are super nice people. Right and I've got nothing to comment about school and classes yet. All I know is the course I am taking is going to be very tough.

That aside, I've been talking to myself quite a bit lately. I realise a weird behaviour which I uphold and there is no way I can change it. I know this sounds a bit as though I am getting emotional again. However, I'm not. I am just confused about myself and a particular kind of people I am interested in. I am shocked to know who my object of affection is at the moment. I am not gender confused. I am pretty traumatised myself to realise it. It is not that this is wrong, I know who should be bearing feelings towards who but things just seem to be going the other direction in my life. & with regards to situation like these, you'll just have to wait and see if it's temporary or permanent.