Four friends; the rest, acquaintances

I think I still cannot forget Khaikheng. I know there is no point posting this kind of entries online. He would never come back to me even though he sees these posts. & that is IF he ever reads them. On the other hand, I post all these irritating entries because I just feel like it. I have no idea why I have all these customary urges to pour my feelings out on international site either. I think it is my guai pi. I don't know how to say guai pi in English. So, pardon me. & I don't find any reasons why should I replace his name with a "him" like many other people are doing. True, it may be made a little secretive and cute. However, sometimes it can really be a pain. How to read your stupid entries when everything is "him" "him" and "him". So, often, I tend to imagine how the person looks like and hence, create my own "him". & most of the time, I get really charming "hims" inside of my own imagination due to the influence of the author. Right? Because who would go blogging, claiming that her own "him" looks like a monkey and he suck big time. Who would? & all these would result in the me being really disappointed when the author finally reveals the "him". Most of the time, I will go very sian. You expect someone really charming and handsome, but it ends up otherwise. So, I don't want any people to curse me for using "him" and making their beautiful imagination crushed.
Right, back to my usual topic. I still miss Khaikheng. & I don't know what else to say already. I probably can't forget him in another 5 years. That is all. I think if I don't blog about it, my backside goes itchy. Besides, roundface and Juvey both get sick of my "Khaikheng" topic already. So who can I talk these to ? So, well, erm, no choice, I've got to blog about it. If not, like I've said above, my backside gets really itchy and scratching doesn't help. I just have to talk about him. Can't help it. Don't blame me. I can sense someone rolling her stupid big eyes while reading this, but I don't care.

Okay, back to recent working days and schedule. I've got couple of off days coming up soon. So, I've got to plan what to do. I don't want any last minute planning. That aside, I am really happy today. As I was thinking what to do for tomorrow and Friday, I received Chengjin's message to go Marina south for kite flying then dinner. It's Siangchoong's birthday anyway. I am so glad I've got no need to waste time thinking on what to do tomorrow anymore ! YAYE ! Okay lah, that is not the real reason why I am so happy. I am just happy that I've this big group of friends that are really cool and adorable. This group of friends that are so nice and always up to new and kinky ideas. Who would think of kite-flying these days ? The nature are almost abandoned by the growing new technology already. So who would ? They would. My quirks would. & that makes me so glad and I feel so fortunate. I really love them and I hope we will never lose contact.

I know very well how much I want my life to change since the start of this year. I'd say 2006 is a new year and I should start everything afresh again. So far, I've only received one dart and I am more than happy to say it's something that helps me bonds the relationship even further with the one that threw the dart onto me. In anyway, I have made it clear to myself that in life, I don't need a lot of friends. I am not embarrassed to say I've got only four friends, good ones, I must add. & the rest of the people I know are my acquaintances. It's not rude. It is up to yourself. Somehow or rather, I feel much better living in the "4 friends and all acquaintances" life. I only started this since the start of the year and I feel so much better. Still, my quirks are the bestest creatures I've come across since seventeen years ago.